I promise myself to really write
ugh. I don't like feeling like this.
Your Birthdate: August 25 |
![]() Calm and understated, you struggle to express your love with words. Over time, your partner learns to recognize your passion by the actions you take. You're good at wooing someone slowly, without them even realizing it! Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2 You are most compatible with people born on the 7th, 16th, and 25th of the month. |
You Communicate With Your Body |
![]() This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person. You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches. Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others. A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you! |
and things start to go back to normal.....don't worry no emo-ness to dig thru.
I had a generally stressful pessimistic day overall and was sorta not too sure about going to Morgan's since I was feelin' crappy but I'm so glad I did.
I got my taxes done (well Morgan did) and we watched jeopardy and ate corn dogs, ya know the standard. The standard continued and I really realized that either I have changed a lot, Morgan is magical or a combination of the two because he is the only person I drop my walls around almost all the way....I'm working on it and I want to get all the way there before he leaves but the fact that I am so open with him is just amazing to me. In 4-5 months now (it doesn't feel like that long but at the same time it feels like I have been with him forever.....) I have become confident, I stand up for myself a lot more.....I just can't express in words all these stupid little fears that I had that I just don't anymore.
Maybe its because its a more “mature” relationship, that would make a lot of sense, but I know that I wouldn't be the person I have become without help from so many people.
Things get hard, things get stressful. These next few years I going to be what shape me and I guess I want to take them with pride and effort. I need to do well, I need to find my calling whatever or whoever it may be.....
Thank you everyone who has supported me. I love you.
This also makes me think I need medication.
So after all this college looking stuff I think I am just going to end up going to SFCC for a few classes till I get it all worked out. I think that I would really let my family down if I did job corp. and I know that I don't have what it takes to do americorp xD;;
I do think something like that could really help me in a lot of ways.
Its night like these ones that make me think there is something wrong with me.
Something that made me stop knowing how to just be happy.
I just feel so broken at times, like there is nothing I can do about it.
I had a great night, a decent day. Got to see Morgan, saw cloverfeild (good movie!) and didn't really have anything bad happen.
I guess I'm just having a slight set back in things.
I'm not particularly happy with my weight, or the way I look.
I know I have no real purpose in my work, that its a shitty job and that I'm overall worthless in that sense-some of you can stop reminding me of that please.
I have no goals for the future what so ever.....
maybe its the fact that I spent a large portion of the past several years wanting to no longer exist.
I never thought about it. I have no life long dreams, no plans or expectations.
I guess getting married and having kids would be cool eventually....but I hear all these people talk about how they know exactly what to do, how they are going to do all these amazing things and I'm all apathetic too it all that I'm not sure what to do.
I need to step up I suppose.
I'm so frustrated and angry at myself. Why can't I just work like a normal fucking person?
FUCK.
I just don't understand it sometimes. There are days that nothing works for me, I only see all the bad things and I feel like everything is a personal attack and it makes me sad.
I just want to be a happy person who does well.....and I'm weak and pathetic so I don't want to do the work.
I need to start eating better, I know that. I need to start doing my school work (the little I do have) and I need to start saving money.
There are nights that I'm glad I'm alone cause I feel like such an ugly person, inside and out.
I honestly feel unlovable right now because I know that besides Leslie I more or less am at times.
I feel vulnerable and insecure again.
I'm so scared of being thought of as stupid or anything negative.
Morgan gave me a relatively normal “wtf?” look and I felt like I was going to die cause I said something dumb, my mind franticly wondered what he could be thinking and for the first time ever I was afraid of how stupid he finally figured out I am.
I really don't like myself. I know it will go away in the morning. Sometimes I wonder if I do need medication.

Your Love Number is 2 |
![]() Of all the numbers, you are the most caring and empathetic lover. Unselfish and humble, you find it easy to forgive your sweetie's mistakes. At times, your need to please can be come a bit too needy. As long as you remain somewhat independent, your relationships are perfectly balanced. |
The SonnetDeliberate Gentle Love Dreamer (DGLD) Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed? Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance. Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so. You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls. Your exact female opposite: Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master Always avoid: The 5-Night Stand (DBSM), The False Messiah (DBLM), The Hornivore (RBSM), The Last Man on Earth (RBSD) Consider: The Loverboy (RGLM) |
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